fast car

there are things that i ve just found out that makes me wonder a bit more about relationships.
i really don't understand

it was so pleasant,
lying in his arms, the love was gone
the feeling was gone.
but i enjoyed so much smoking my cigarette in his arms driving fast across the city.
across the two continents upon the sea.

the music was so loud.
i felt like a child.
not aware. no awake.
just living.

but why relationships are so complicated.
i'll keep ask why.
there isn't an answer.

maybe there is.
but it'll take time